Now to make use of this thing. I imagine it's the kind of process that's difficult as hell when you first start out (what to put? An introduction? Just go into my life at a run halfway through and expect the rest to just catch up? Discount my life entirely and hope my personality shines through in a series of witty anecdotes and observations?) but as you get into the groove, it gets easier. Also having a few friends would probably help, but Christ, I don't even have a single user icon yet, walk before you can run. For now I'm happy to just blather on to myself, maybe work up the nerve to participate in a few communities and hopefully the rest will follow.
First things first, why did I even set this thing up? Long story short, I left facebook, but still needed somewhere to reach out to. There's a few good reasons for that, the most sensible one being I think social networking is bad for you. It shouldn't be that easy to find out that much about other people. It disturbed me that I could just click on the profile of someone I hadn't spoken to since primary school and after just a few minutes of casual browsing I'm likely to find out their job status, spending habits, family life and whether or not they are on good terms with their partner. It bothered me even more that other people could do the exact same for me if they wanted. I'm not missing the irony of jumping the facebook ship straight to live journal, a site designed for people to spill their secrets and feelings to the world. But the difference is I can control what goes out here. I reveal what I want to reveal, I'm not left vulnerable to the not-so-caring or considerate masses.
Yeah, that's the main reason I choose to explain my facebook suicide. It sounds good, edgy like. I am one of the strong few who decided to stick it to the social networking man. But honestly, the main reason I chose to leave?
I'm going through some difficult times right now, not going to go into details on it because doing so usually leads to very long and emotional rants (and as you can probably already gather, I'm quite wordy.) But long story short, it's all about a guy. A guy who I love very much, very very much. I've hurt him, he's hurt me, but we don't want to live life without each other. We're in a situation of being screwed when we're together and screwed when we're apart, but we're not ready to give up on each other yet. We're working through things and riding on the hope that we'll get there. There being some kind of happy. Unfortunately, there are meddling outside forces (one in particular, unsurprisingly being another girl). These forces don't have our best intentions in mind , in fact they've made it clear that they have their own plans for how things should turn out which directly contradicts what guy and I want. The situation is complicated and it doesn't seems likely that this force will be cut out of our lives (much as I wish it would be). If there's any hope of guy and I getting through this bad patch, I had to cut this force out of my own peripheral vision. The best way to guarantee this was to delete facebook.
I think by being vague and brief I just managed to complicate all of that. Long story short I guess the brutally honest reason for why I deleted facebook was because I did it for a boy.
Wow that makes me sound childish. Eh, I'm choosing to focus on the fact that I've made a positive life step to reclaiming myself. Even if things don't work out with aforementioned guy, I'm fairly certain I'm better off without the annoyances and intrusions of facebook. At least for now.
And why did I join live journal? Like it or not, you can get pretty isolated without facebook. This place seems nice, I think I shall stay for a while.